I have made a couple of different attempts at our blog and it's always been a struggle for me to know what to write, say, and put on here. There are so many blogs and really do I have anything worth saying? Most of the time that answer is a clear no even though I do love to talk a lot.
I started this blog as a place to share more about our family and our lives as urban missionaries. I will continue to do that some, but the blog is going to start to take on a new shape.
In the past 8 months, my heart has been touched by the Lord in a deep way to see revival in the inner city. There is a lot to this journey that I will share soon. I have learned so much this past year and at times it is overwhelming, but I felt like the Lord told me to start writing about it. So that is what I do.
Now, for those of you that know me, know I am not a writer. I love to communicate but that is mostly in the form of talking!!! So writing consistently will be a stretch and honestly one that reveals my insecurity. But I am learning that I can't compare myself to others and not to worry about what people think of me. But what I hope to do is share my heart and things that I feel the Lord is teaching me. My writing will at times probably be raw and could be said a lot better by someone who is much smarter than me.
One thing after being a missionary and serving the Lord the past 14 years, I have learned that the more I grow and learn about God, the more I don't know. I have learned to appreciate many streams of the Christian faith. I have become good friends with Orthodox priests, and pastors and leaders in the Charismatic movement and anything in between. God is so big and massive. He doesn't have any grids or boxes that we can put him in, yet that is often the thing we do with certain theologies or traditions. I don't think we mean to do it, but perhaps it is just human nature. How do we really explain with words the beauty of the Lord, this supernatural Being? So as we study Scriptures, we form certain theologies and doctrines. They are definitely helpful but the problem is then we put ourselves in certain camps and then the body of Christ can appear to be divisive.
My heart is for Christ. I deeply want to know him. I want to be in his presence. I want to see his glory come down. I want all that God has and don't want to resist Him in anyway. So I think that is why I love learning from different streams. They all have something different to share and it expands my view and understanding of God.
I don't have a major plan other than to share my heart and especially as it concerns revival.
Thanks for reading.